Sunday, May 3, 2009

I don't know who I am... Or what I stand for. :)

I'm not entirely sure where this sudden urge to blog came from. I haven't blogged in months. As you can see I am the epitome of a "bad blogger". (So much so, that I couldn't remember my password.) I also can't believe I feel guilty about it. :)

Earlier today, I was asked what my favorite quote is... Given some time to think about it, I narrowed it down to one that I've always considered among my many favorites. It is a quote by Dallin H. Oakes:

"It is not enough for us to be convinced of the gospel; we must act and think so that we are converted by it. In contrast to the institutions of the world, which teach us to know something, the gospel of Jesus Christ challenges us to BECOME something."

So it got me thinking and I spent a lot of time wondering what I am becoming. I can admit that I am far from perfect and my spiritual life could use a lot of work. But I think this applies to every aspect of life. At least this is where my train of thought led me... I'm sure everyone has heard the saying "Remember who you are and what you stand for". I know I heard that almost daily from my dad when I was growing up. And I always shrugged it off with a pity laugh and a roll of my eyes, but there is definite truth to it. While I don't intend for this to be a "woe is me" session, I have had a few humbling experiences the past couple of months that have brought my spirits down. And it started me thinking about why I stand for the things I do.

Hopefully this doesn't sound too depressing, but I think I am having an identity crisis. :) Dramatic right? It's just, I am not completely happy with where my life is right now and I think it's time I do something about it, time I "become something" if you will. I look around at all the people that are off on exciting adventures this summer, to be free spirited and live on the beach or move to a new city/country and so on. As much as I would love to join them, my job would not allow that, and I am not prepared for such a change that would include quitting my good, stable job. So I am going to make some smaller changes instead, I won't go in to details, because this is more of a personal challenge to myself. I just wanted to have this documented for my own well-being. I am going to find out who I truly am, and I'm going to find things that make me blissfully happy. That is MY adventure for Summer 2009! Stay tuned for updates....

5 comments:

Marriott's said...

I think that is awesome. I can't wait to hear about these changes you make in your life. I love you girl.

Amy said...

Yeah! I am glad that you finally posted!! :) I am way excited to see what your fun adventure is going to be!! I will stay tuned!

Amy Hansen said...

Yes! i love new adventures!

benandnatty said...

I know who you are...you are Aiya! We love you Aiya and want you to come hang out with us!

Kellie said...

Thanks guys... I can't believe I'm actually blogging now. :) It's pretty fun. lol

Love you too Nat. I miss hanging out with you guys! I still need to take you to lunch for your b-day, and I have your present too!